That’s pretty much what I do, except for when i dont.

Never trust a nether portal.

Sometimes, they can even spawn in the air.

My phone.

I often set it down in obscure spots and not in the 2-3 spots i expect it to be.

Yes, but for games (I’m a game programmer)

I have video of a spider inside my screen

Im not ADHD diagnosed. My hobbies last 2 weeks. I have not held a hobby for more than a month or so. I too burn out, or it’s just not interesting, or I just don’t have the commitment to get good at it. I want to do many things, but they always feel like work, rather than fun.

The only thing that stuck is programming, so I went to school to get better at it, got better at it, but now can’t find a job.

I became a Game Programmer. Job market sucks right now, so I’m cleaning toilets and taking out trash at a grocery store.

But hey, on my days off I sometimes have time to work on games.

I learned pinochle as a kid, but can’t remember how to play now.

I learned Lua as a programming student but can’t remember how to use it now.

I learned Minecraft’s data pack language for the same reason. 20w14infinite needed a Portal gun, I found a working one, but tweaked it to my liking

While I don’t relate to your situation entirely, I go through thoughts of suicide or running away occasionally. I have over 100k in debt. I have a Bachelor’s degree in game programming and didn’t land a job after college, so now I’m working minimum wage cleaning toilets and taking out trash, paying ~900 a month on just loan payments. I also have a $268 car loan payment. Half my income covers loans, if I work full time.

Im also in a lucky position. I don’t have rent, but I do pay all the bills, and property tax. I have a car still. I have my own place still. I can still work, and get to and from work. There were several times I almost lost my car. And if I did, I would also lose my job because I don’t have reliable transportation.

I consider running away at the same times I consider suicide, because I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to live in my situation either. I think about going on the road and driving around the country, doing things I’ve never done before. But I am a gamer through and through, I build games for a career I am trying to get into. I also like sleeping in a bed, not on the ground, or having to inflate and deflate an air mattress (which i did for a while).

Do you want to die, or do you not want to be in your current situation? The decision to commit is a binary one, but there are many more options available by not committing, and you get to experience more you would not have previously. There are things I would have never tried if I didn’t make it to my current age. Ending my life at any point previously, and I would have missed out.

I still think about suicide or running away when I’m down, or anxious, or depressed. Most recently from bad days at work. But then I consider my options, and ask if running away or suicide is really a better option than just letting the current situation play out.

Try and find things to do or people that put you in a good place. Even while your world is falling apart, try and have fun, within your means. It will help clear your mind of bad thoughts and feelings.

So you be wanna be p? a cop?

A-mel-ia Ear-heart flew a lot of air-planes

Except for the one time that she didn’t come back

Just go into the square hole