A thorough list of scientifically based assessments with descriptions and ability to complete and score. One of my favorite things about a few of these test is that they show that the spectrum isn't a continuum, but more of a web of traits that are on separate but related continua.
Feel free to share your scores to engage in discussion!
Note: A self-assessment is not sufficient to properly assess autism. These assessments can provide helpful insight, but a proper assessment includes at least a thorough interview by a licensed mental health professional that specializes in autism assessment.
About 2 weeks ago I saw something that made it twig for myself. It was a random Orion Kelly video about the biggest signs of autism in adults and I found myself stunned that I hit every point but one.
Initially I was like you. Confused on how to feel. ‘Autism’ for me has always been a loaded word and came with particular connotations.
But this last week, especially, has certainly softened those feelings. I’m still not happy with applying the word to myself. It feels awkward and an excuse, and coming from 32 years of being fearsomely independent (probably because I’m on the spectrum) and a strong believer in people being in control and responsible of their own actions it’s still a tough pill.
Overall I think ruminating has been good for me. Keep researching it, reading/listening to other autistic people’s stories and experiences and start making a list of the traits that you identify with. It’s helped me have something that I can share with my partner, and it’s helped me realise things like what my stims are etc.