There's quite a bit of comments so I'll try to reply to them all at once. I saw comments suggesting medication and I agree with them. I've tried a bunch of different things in the past (not for adhd specifically but overall):

• to-do's (they work, unless i miss something and dont write it down)
• meditation
• cold showers and while these indeed worked to improve my performance when it comes to what i like. it never helped with school and my entire life i've been misled into thinking that it's lack of motivation/laziness rather than lack of focus, while it's actually lack of focus causing lack of motivation as you can probably tell, im rather immature despite and many tasks would be done by my father instead of me. he'll just insist on doing something for me when seeing me procrastinate for days. my mom's a pharmacist, thus the issue with medication. I tried to look for other sources of my inattention like depression, anxiety, autism, sleep deprivation, caffeine dependence or even diabetes. So i'm pretty sure its adhd (i wish it wasnt)

I had a talk with my mom and although she does not understand how can i not focus even i try. she agreed to schedule a visit with my usual doctor, ill ask for a non-controlled substance as a medication and i think it'll be fine

Thank you, I saw this channel on my homepage but never bothered to check it out

I wish there was more awareness about adhd where i live. If i could do what you're suggesting it would surely help but it'll still be hard to maintain attention during subjects that i dont find interesting, even when i want too. the issue about diagnosis is that i was recommended one clinic that does them the price was high above what i expected. 7 times what i (my parents) pay for one psychiatric appointment

I applied for economics and related fields since I used to read books on economics. But now I feel burnt out and my main purpose of going to college/university is to make friends. I really want to fit in and hang out like others do

I hope so too, friend

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