This works so well. I use it when I get neuroma twinges or insect bites.

Definitely saved my sleep/sanity a few times.

Is that Aphex Twin

Oh, quite a big change for sure. And you’d be having the exact same thoughts on the other side if you’d taken that language job. That’d definitely be sitting in my thoughts.

That is so interesting. If you’re willing to say, I’m curious about which fields they were?

I had a similar experience with radically switching majors (zoology to engineering). I just needed to know. However, in my case I sensed the door closing and dashed back in. Would’ve liked that engineering money though…

Honestly, the fact that engineering isn’t public facing was a big plus! But it’s the tech part. I’m a zoology/maths major that switched to engineering for a bit. I thought it’d be great! I love combat robotics, and I tinker with gameboys ffs.

I actually love tech, but I also think a lot of modern tech is overkill and shouldn’t exist

This resonates. I have boundless wonder for the amazing things in the universe that we get to witness (using said tech) from the molecular level up. I don’t know why this stops at human-created things, as I do like tech too - as a layman.

It just feels like human development and expansion is a zero-sum game with nature, and my heart is with the biodiversity we are destroying. I was so excited for circuits class too.

May I ask what you ended up doing? Did you become disillusioned with the field?

Engineering. Programming. Any kind of field with good jobs or stability.

I don’t know how to articulate it properly, but I can’t care about anything that is human-focused. I tried engineering and it made me extremely uncomfortable; like my soul broke apart and got put back together in the wrong way. Doomed to be a poor af zoologist/plant biologist :(

Late to the party but one channel I came across was Combo Class, who should get more love! I adore his setup and his passion for weird maths stuff.

Absolutely strange in the most endearing way.