even if I just slightly feel like one dislikes me a little
This line stuck out to me because of what I’m currently working through. I have no idea if we share this issue, so please take this with a grain of salt. Is it possible you struggle with people pleasing? If you perceive yourself to only have value when others are pleased with you, someone being displeased with you hits like a freight train. When someone gets mad at me on the road, even if it’s not my fault, I can’t stop thinking about it for MONTHS. It made me cry a lot as a boy. I don’t think this accounts for all of what you’re talking about, but it could be a piece of it.
They raised 100 mil in funding and phased out the first game in order to work on the second. They didn’t lose the interest of their audience (source).