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1 year agoAs someone whose egg cracked very recently I am still unsure if Maya will be my final decision.
It’s tough for me. The female Versions of my deadname were ones ingot bullied with my entire teen years so they have this very negative memory to them.
First I went in a direction of names I just find nice and pretty I guess. Starting with Sofia which didn’t really fit my vibe, then Florence which is a really nice name but a bit too extra for me. Shortened it to Flora but that felt odd.
For two months now my gf and some friends have been calling me Maya. How did I find it? I reminded of the 3D program Maya. I remembered it’s also a name. I liked the sound of it and it felt like it fit my vibe and so far that has been the case
I mean it’s literally how I remembered it being a name. And it’s a pretty common one too once you look for it.
I don’t mind it for now and it has been more if a conversation starter than anything. Also some one line friends keep calling me mayannaise which is funny as hell to me.
With my deadname playing with the name of it in a mocking way always felt like the worst insult possible to me. With my chosen name it’s fun and I take part in it… I think that’s a good sign