Sorry for another “Is this autism or normal human behavior?” Post.
There’s a long story as to why I am experiencing this again but it’s not really any more relevant then the title of this post.
For older folk it’s like that episode of the Simpsons where Lisa, out of pity, give Ralf Wiggim a valentines day card and he immediately starts invisioning a future with her as his romantic parter.
I’ve identified I have this same trait and I hate it. Looking back I’ve totally made people who had been nothing but kind to me uncomfortable and shut me out because of this.
Now knowing that I am doing this is at least making me a little more in control and hopfully less weird. But now I need to stop and asses every interaction I have which is itself awkward.
Have you looked at “limerence”? It can be caused by childhood trauma. I haven’t found anyone talking about it in the context of autism tho.
Might be a good fit. I also identify as asexual, though may be more in the grey or semi sexual side of things. The intrusive thinking is something that is strongly mentioned here and something I’ve been dealing with. It’s been causing a lot of my identity confusion.
It is odd to me that even my therapist keeps asking about childhood trauma in regards to some of my issues. Yet as far as I know my childhood was mostly good other then some bullying at school and at home.
I’ll look more into this one with my therapist. Thak you for the suggestion.
Bullying at home is neither healthy nor normal. Rejection in the place where you were definitely supposed to be safe, can cause these issues. Suddenly every positive interaction means that you are accepted. How do you react to yelling? To making mistakes? Uncovering the causes for these problems can take years but will be worth it. Something your therapist will hopefully guide you through better than an internet stranger. Be patient with yourself, you’ll figure it out.