We are normally good at masking bc its expected of us but I am so tired of it. I’m so tired of having to pretend like I’m someone I’m not.
Then when we mess up and let our guard down or make a mistake and accidentally show people we are ND, we get dogpiled or yelled at. It sucks especially bc we sometimes don’t understand social mores, so even when we are confident that we are acting the way NTs expect us to, we can end up wrong and still get yelled at.
It’s awful bc we are never gonna create a more equitable society if we can’t have these types of conversations with NTs. We have to show them that bring ND isn’t an insult, but that’s when we get yelled at or made fun of.
This is my third time writing this. I just have to say, I agree with you 100%. I’ve only begun to begin to act “normal” by being treated like shit and being afraid of being myself.
I’ve even had a boss tell me to only talk about the weather. It’s grueling, dehumanizing seeing other people talk like normal, but when I do it, it’s somehow wrong.