I’ve been on a medical LOA since last year and tomorrow I go back to work and I keep thinking about how almost all my coworkers I knew are gone and processes have changed. Also that if I do something wrong I might injure myself again and be right back where I was a year ago (I have been cleared for full job duties by my doctor).
I’m currently overthinking the future, my identity, what I want and need going forward, what reasons to keep going forward, if this is the best I can do, why I’m afraid of most of life, and a bunch of other shit.
Me_IRLMidlifeCrisis
Yep, you hit a major one for me too. I’m early 40’s and I keep finding myself thinking “who am I vs. who did I want to be.”
I feel like the whole reason to keep going is to find out exactly who we are. Everybody is (or should IMO) be continuously exploring, learning, and growing/changing.
Even in my 40’s I’m still finding out new things and feelings that change my perspectives.
I’m exactly what I planned to be and I’m still disappointed. OH WELL