• averagedrunk@lemmy.ml
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    ADHD combination type and used to battle depression with anhedonia every single day. I wasn't sad, I was uninterested and couldn't feel pleasure. I haven't beaten it but I'm in control these days.

    It's an exhausting feedback loop. The less I did because I just couldn't get myself together enough to do anything the worse I felt. The worse I felt, the less I was able to do.

    I see you, friend.

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      And I see you, friend. Also sending hugs.

      It's… rough. I cope by posting a stupid amount of memes. Seems to work so far.

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        Your coping process brightens the day for the rest of us too. I hope that positivity keeps coming back your way.

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            That just means you’re a good person despite whatever the universe has been throwing at you.

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                    Thanks to all of you for making this my favorite sub. And I see you AD(H)D gang!

                    I made it through divorce, financial ruin, almost ending it all, and finally reaching peace and happiness again. Keep keeping at it! The fight is never over.

                    BTW look at this beautiful rainbow of nesting (if you're using the default web client)

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      …uninterested and couldn't feel pleasure.

      Not so long ago I finally came to terms that I would never feel true happiness and joy like I did when I was very young. For maybe twenty to twenty five years I chased after it and all it did was make me miserable and sick. Now I just focus on hanging on and feeling content with it. It's nice.

      EDIT: I see ADHD subs focus on how one can hyperfixate on something then drop it. Many saw it as a failure. I see as a triumph because it means that I was interested and driving pleasure from someone well enough to not only get out of bed but also focus and be passionate, if only for a little while. To me, hyperfixation is a week or two of not having to struggle to get out of bed to just pee.