“real time conviction”

Thank you :)

I'd like to have you on my survival team.

I notice and appreciate cool details. I'm spontaneous and up for things. I can get really excited. I will support your questionable life choices if your heart is in them. I have creative associations. I'm usually good at following other peoples' thoughts. I collect useful junk as well as quotes and stuff. I usually carry a bunch of key items that might come in handy, like a lighter, a pen and a pocketknife.

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Hello fellow struggler, I’m glad we are having this exchange. I’m currently sick with Covid (not bad, just annoying, that’s what you get for going out and meeting people lol). It helps me go a litte easier on myself though, as I have good reason to isolate an feel exhausted.

As for my current Thing, I asked my best friend to help me and together, we made some decent progress. Especially when I have trouble reading messages because I am afraid they might contain something stressful (which of course doesn’t fix anything), it helps me to ask someone I trust to read them for me and tell me what they say. Stupid, I know, but the simpelest things can feel as hard as you let them sometimes…

Anyways, I coloured something today and quite enjoyed it.

monotI like one minute at a time, it can be a reminder that the past does not determine the future. Even though the last 200 Minutes weren’t so great, I can get up and make myself a cup of tea this minute.

Can totally confirm sunlight, it helps to make myself sit in the sun even for a bit. I am lucky to have a balcony, so I don’t even need to leave the house, really.

Digestionwise, I have had some good experiences adding some psyillium/flea seeds to my oats, but it might not be for you.

I’ve been wondering about things I can do in better times to build some resources for when I’m struggeling. So far, I came up with stuff like having some proper meals at home that need little effort to prepare, as well as trying to build/practice good habits like journaling, mindfulness and light exercise. I’d be interested in further ideas, should you have any :)

Hope you are continuing to get better, do not despair if you aren’t.

I never looked at it that way.

I discovered this community and your post today. A lot of what you wrote rings familiar to me. It’s a cycle I am always afraid of because I know how easy it is to slip in and how hard to get out.

I start avoiding a thing and it just keeps growing, I don’t allow myself to do anything else really because the THING is still there. I distract myself with something irrelevant until I can’t stop because once I do I think about THE THING and anxiety and self-hate bubble up. Too avoid these feelings, I need to keep distracted until I am too tired to keep my eyes on the screen. By this time, morning light is already disturbing my exhausted sleep. I wake up at noon, dehydrated, and go right back to distracting.

I think that everyone’s replies are magnificent, excerpts from them got copied to my collection of good advice. I hope today finds you ok and I want you to know that you are not alone in your struggles.

Fair point. Nuclear plants are fairly safe and historically have a low death toll, I agree. Leaves the radioactive waste to deal with.

I’m a little worried now.

I do not behave the way I was two years ago, nor do other people, both in private and in public (Where I live, seeing someone wear a facemask has become the exception. Big concerts have been taken place for a while, etc.). Because of that (together with the subject not coming up a lot in news and conversation anymore, masks and rapid tests going on sale, … ), I had come to the conclusion that the situation had generally relaxed. Am I wrong? At the beginning of this, I was anxious another major outbreak would be imminent, but nothing horrible seemed to happen, so I sort of lowered my guard. (Took a test when I had a sore throat or before meeting certain people, sometimes wore a mask when on particularly crowded trains, but otherwise started to live more or less like ‘before’.) Is Covid still a big deal and I sort of missed it?

Is it though? I was under the impression that, while still not harmless, the mutations we have been dealing with for the last couple of months lead to generally milder symptoms and do not put a comparable strain on health care etc. I do understand that this doesn’t fix anything for especially endangered people.

Didn’t know that, but you are right, nobody actually died directly from radiation related causes at Fukushima. However, deaths from circumstances relating to the evacuation of the area are estimated to be in the thousands (source: wikipedia). I find that that somewhat illustrates the extent to which human lives have been impacted. While a plane crash is a personal tragedy for a number of people and relatives, a nuclear accident feels more like a collective catastrophe.

This would have been my intuitive take as well, but I do see how it’s not exactly best practice.

It does feel a little symbolic that we have reached Z just as we are reaching climate tipping points.

I do mind now. I’m quite bummed out about missing all the fun of the 20th century. And never getting to breathe truly clean air. Or having the athlete body of a gatherer. Messing around in trees with feet that can actually grip something.

Sometimes AI images help me see more clearly what is wrong with our societies. Because, really? That image is connected to this word? I can feel how, but that’s f*cked up.

Since learning about this, I have decided to keep the game installed on my phone in case something wild happens (I’m thinking after witnessing an accident or something). It is sort of comforting to have a scientifically backed up mental strategy that is easily accessible, even if it’s not a lot. I gather that tetris keeps the part of your brain responsible for looping images occupied with, well, tetris.

I see a difference regarding the effects if something does go wrong. A plane crash is no Fukushima.