Thanks. I will probably end up keep using gimp and krita.

Looks interesting, hadn’t heard from it. Thanks.

Personally I self-host on a raspberry pi. It took me a few weeks to setup, but it has been running without problems for almost 2 years now at practically no cost (beyond purchase and electricity).

Are you familiar with the theory of predictive processing? If not, look it up esp. In relation to autism. Tldr: human brains do not process information to form an image of the world, but we predict what the world may look like at any given moment. We use our sensory input only to correct errors in our prediction. There are two thing at play with autism here. 1. We are aware of more errors than NTs (inability to sift critical errors from non-critical ones) 2. When human brains detect an error it can choose to believe the input or the prediction. NT brains assign higher value to normative rules (sometimes they value input more and other times the prediction (internalized belief)) While autistic brains give more value to sensory input. Anyway, this is what I know of the current state of neurological difference, but I’m no scientist.

I tried lsd once in my tweens. Didn’t really like the trip itself but remember feeling good for a week afterwards. Never tried shrooms. Might consider it. Just not sure where to get it (safely). Thanks for the advice.

Runs fine on my computer. Getting a consistent 40-60 fps without lag or stuttering in a 10K city.

• OS: Manjaro
• KERNEL: 6.5.5-1
• CPU: AMD Ryzen 5 7600X
• GPU: AMD Radeon RX 6700 XT
• DRIVER: 4.6 Mesa 23.1.9
• PROTON: 8.0-4

I empathise with your existentialism. I have had that my whole life as well. It is the root cause of my depressions. “Funny” thing is, that in my country (not America), psychologists are not trained to deal with such issues. As soon as I bring up the concept and talk about the pointlessness of life they say I am too philosophical and they cannot talk about philosophy. And then they go on about e.g. the “self” and “free will” and “self-control” and “responsibility”, and when I then point out to them that those concepts are based on philosophical ideas from the era of enlightenment but never scientifically proven to exist, they defend it by saying it is the “norm”, I point out to them that a “norm” is by definition non-inclusive. At which point I am labelled “difficult” and “non-cooperative”.