Yeah I already smoke weed and it makes me feel “normal” per say. But I only smoke it at work and I don’t really smoke outside of work in general because I either forget or just don’t want to. Honestly I think I should force myself to smoke more but for some reason I never do. As with the creative outlet… Uh yeah I need one badly. It’s a shame. That i’m literally bad at doing any creative work or having the will power to fully realize the worlds I create inside my head from time to time. I’m really really lazy. Granted I guess most of the things I would create would be extremely experimental at best or bad to play at large. In terms of games I would like to make.
BTW you can control systemd and how fast it chooses SIGKILL after sending SIGTERM. I don’t know why people complain so much about it. It’s really just there such that things on your computer end properly without any sort of data corruption or something bad going on after a reboot or the next time you turn on your computer.