I prefer brown noise, it feels less harsh to me.

Edit: should have read the article before commenting, the author includes brown noise.

I thought satisfactory at first too, but fluffy tailed hogs and lizard doggos don’t seem to give a shit that I just built an oil pipeline and two dozen oil refineries in their home.

Not so subtle I guess. I’ve experienced both these to varying degrees so I’ve just been lumping them into the same thing.

Sounds a lot like hyper-focus to me too, but like most traits shared by ADHD and Autism, there are probably some subtle differences. Personally I find the inertia terminology to be more representative of my experience.

Lots of good technical starting points here. I don’t want to prematurely discourage you, but before you get into any code, evaluate your problem solving abilities. If that is an area you struggle in, work on that first, or at least in conjunction with programming basics.

I’ve worked with engineers who have all the code skills, but when faced with a complex issue, struggled to break it down into it’s simplest components and wound up with a messy, over-engineered solution.

Echoing what others have said, get the meds. I’m 39 and have been taking Vyvanse for a couple years; when I forget I am a mess, I can’t believe I made it this far without.

I’ve been working on this lately, what I find helpful is reminding myself that the chore doesn’t have to be done perfectly, and that some progress is better than no progress. I struggle with perfectionism and will put off tasks indefinitely because of fear that if I start wrong or don’t finish it immediately it won’t be perfect. My therapist helped me to realize that perfect is the enemy of done, and that it is ok if something isn’t done perfectly.

The bulk of my day to day work is with a legacy application written in vb.net, and I couldn’t agree more with your first paragraph.