You might not have anyone close to you to talk to right now, but you did choose to post here and because of that you’re not alone. I’ll talk to ya for as long as you need to if you want. I don’t have any experience with the trans part, but I’ve been homeless with absolutely nothing before - by all rights I shouldn’t even be here, but I am.
Many of us have been in some variation of your situation and most of us make it back to some semblance of a normal life. It’s hard to not give in to despair but it doesn’t have to be impossible. I’m not going to say you’re too young to give in to that despair because I know that shit doesn’t help, but things do change when one gets older. The perspective can be refreshing.
Mint is on the other hand the most popular in the world