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  • I work in IT support, which is basically the next pond over from development. Because the job is so mentally intensive, if I’m working on complex tasks for more than 4-5 hours, my brain is catatonic by the time I hit the end of my shift.

    Mental effort, is still effort. Most of the time you can’t see that someone is mentally tired, but it is just as debilitating as being physically exhausted.

    I can not do my job while mentally exhausted. One screw up from me, and I have the ability to, entirely by accident, take out an entire organizations ability to do useful work.

    Some of my clients, I’ve seen log into the system at 8AM or earlier, and still be online after midnight. I don’t understand how they’re getting anything useful done by that time.



  • I’m still amazed at climate deniers. You see the evidence year over year, how can you not fucking see it?

    10 years ago (or thereabouts) we had snow in my area so severe that most things were shut down. People couldn’t get out of their driveways.

    I had to go out after the snowfall and it took more than an hour to dig my car out enough to leave.

    Last year, we had maybe two snowfalls, and there was snow on the ground for less than one hour all winter.

    The changes year over year are small, but over 10+ years? It’s an entirely different planet. IDK why some people are so blind to that. WTF.


  • I have a lot of thoughts on it, mostly unhappy thoughts.

    Two things stand out:

    First, I’m having a hard time with the voting turnout numbers. More people showed up to boot Trump out of office (voting for Biden), than every before. If you look at the numbers, the Republicans have gone up and up in vote count, albeit, not by a lot. While the Democratic vote count varies wildly year over year. It tells me that if people, specifically democratic voting people, show up, they win. When they don’t, then the GOP wins. It is clear to me that they didn’t show up.

    Clearly, more people believed he was a threat to the country in 2020 and turned up in droves to drive him out, but in 2024 when we needed all of those people to turn up again, and keep him out, they just, didn’t bother. I’m sure, a nontrivial amount of the voters flipped between Dem and Rep… Or vice versa… But the total votes when Biden won, were simply a lot more.

    So I’m having trouble reconciling that fewer people turned up to vote and keep the orange one out of office, than the number that showed up to kick him out of office to begin with. I don’t understand why they thought they needed to show up in 2020, but felt that they didn’t need to in 2024. I just don’t get it.

    The second thing is centered around project 2025. Holy shit that entire plan is cursed. I feel bad for every American that isn’t a straight white male right now. You’re all going to get fucked over in some way, shape, or form. Even if you are a straight white male, you’re probably still fucked because of all the fucked up things that Trump is going to do to the economy that will benefit his billionaire friends (at your expense). You’ll get fucked slightly less than everyone else, but you’ll still get fucked.

    The only solace I have in this, is that Trump is done. He cannot run for a third term. Assuming that he isn’t successful in dismantling the democracy at the heart of what the US is, it will only be four years and they can start the very long journey to repairing all the damage that this clown is about to do.

    I have no illusions, that even if America survives his second term, they will be fucked for decades to come.




  • MystikIncarnate@lemmy.cato196@lemmy.blahaj.zoneREMOVED
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    I have a hard enough time getting my head around how much money $100B is already. Like, I don’t even see numbers above the hundreds of thousands ever (usually on loans, like my mortgage), so the idea that some of these people could buy my house 100,000+ times over, and I will spend years, paying for it once, is hard enough.

    Wealth hoarding has gotten way out of hand.


  • I don’t hate my job. I also don’t care for capitalism.

    Neither of these are why I don’t like Mondays.

    I work in IT support, and Mondays are always one of the busiest days of the week.

    It’s like y’all just save up all your IT problems to submit them as critical issues at 8AM on Monday because you like to watch me suffer. If your shit breaks on a Sunday or Friday, or whatever, please, for the love of God, don’t wait until Monday to put in a ticket.

    You’re killing me here.


  • So. I’ve kind of had two eye opening moments with meds.

    I first started with concerta, and it was like stepping into the light. The problems were certainly not gone, but they were at least manageable. I could break out of mental loops that were not productive, and focus on stuff I actually needed to do. I still had a bit of an obsession with being as near-perfect as I could, but I could focus those efforts into things that were actually useful, instead of my mind going in circles.

    It improved my emotional state. I was kind of in a long term funk of “everything is meh”, and I found myself smiling so much it hurt my face. A lot of that diminished over time, but it hasn’t gone away, it’s just less intense.

    Recently I started on an NDRI, Wellbutrin, which had more subtle positive effects. Immediately I noticed the negative side effects, dry mouth, some GI issues. I stuck with it for a week and most of that has subsided. I dunno if the negatives made the positives more shrouded, or if the positives are just minor in comparison, but I find my emotional state and attitude is more on the positive side rather than sitting fairly firmly in the middle.

    As for my usual ADHD symptoms, with the combination of the concerta and Wellbutrin, I have little or no difficulty doing the little routine things that I always had to push myself to do before. The phrase “super easy, barely an inconvenience” applies to all the little trivial tasks I do daily, when before it was always some level of mental effort to get myself to do things.

    I feel more “normal” now than I ever have before.

    I must say, if this is how non-ADHD (and/or non-executive function disorder) people are, then I get why they don’t understand us. This is an easy, quick, and trivial task, it takes no time or effort to do… But when you have an executive function disorder, the task might as well be “climb Mount Everest” not “fold laundry”.







  • MystikIncarnate@lemmy.cato196@lemmy.blahaj.zoneADHD rule
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    Yes and no. It’s not exclusive to ADHD.

    The ADHD part of this is being unable or very bad at “tuning it out” so you can focus on something. Like, you recognise there’s sound, but since it’s not relevant to what you’re focused on, you ignore it without thinking about the fact that you’re ignoring it… That’s what ADHD people are bad at.

    It can be very helpful if you need to listen for specific sounds to survive. Like, if you were in the brush and you hear very specific crunching noises, the kind that you would hear if you were being stalked by a predator… Someone with ADHD would be able to pick up on that more readily, while doing something else (like, idk, gathering), than someone who doesn’t have ADHD.

    IMO, a lot of ADHD traits provide advantages in specific scenarios, mainly related to crisis, conflict and survival, but those traits work against you for basically everything else.

    My ADHD superpower is basically being situationally aware to the point at which it harms my ability to live. I almost always remember the most trivial details of places and situations that largely do not matter. I’ll get called into a meeting for some hyper important project from my manager for client x, and that I should be working with person y at the client site to push forward. I will remember every detail of the plant on the managers desk, whether it was real or fake, was it in dirt or mulch or that foam stuff that they sometimes use for plants, was it recently watered (was the substance it was in, wet?), any oddly colored stripes in the stem/branches/leaves. How big was it, were there any issues with it, did it have any neighbors (other plants, maybe a fish?), even pictures nearby, etc…

    Then I have to email my manager later to ask who y is, because I’ve forgotten the name.

    This is my life.



  • I’ve been back to the high seas for a while.

    Before I get into it, I’ll give an honourable mention to the RIAA/music industry, which is largely just putting all of the music on every platform and letting users choose which one they want to use. This is the way, and I’m happy to pay one service to get access to the stuff I actually want to hear.

    Back to video/MPAA. Are you all on crack? I saw this coming back when Netflix was the only licensed media game on the internet… I was subscribed and enjoying some shows, the shows then… Went away, they disappeared. After looking into it, the show I was enjoying was pulled when a copyright was revoked by the publisher, so Netflix no longer had the right to distribute the show.

    I saw the writing on the wall. That publisher was going to make their own Netflix competitor with their stuff on it, to try to extort more profit from the streaming stuff. Clearly their c-suite thought that people would be willing to pay for just their content separately from Netflix. I saw that writing and noped right the fuck out. Grabbed my tri-point hat and flag from storage and set sail, and I’ve never looked back.

    The copyright holding asshats, ruined internet streaming, because everyone wanted to be their own thing. They splintered the entire online streaming thing into a bunch of disparate platforms all with some subset of the media available via streaming. It’s worse than cable, honestly.

    IMO, the only good move that’s happened for streaming (but horrible for so many other reasons) was Disney gobbling up all the other media studios and production companies, then putting all their stuff on one service. There’s a few holdouts, but by and large the two biggest players right now are Netflix (the OG) and Disney (+)… So a bunch of good media ended up on D+, and so it’s kind of “the” streaming service… For better or worse (mostly worse, as OP points out).

    I’m still firmly on my ship, sailing the high seas. Unless they go the way of music, and allow all shows on every platform and you pick your platform based on your preferences, I’ll stay on this ship. Thanks.