The sound of dogs barking. If I liked that, I‘d be so happy every single day. I‘d wake up and go to sleep to a sound I enjoy. As it is, I will have to move and rent is even more expensive now, just depressing.

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I feel similar and here I pay about 11€ for a movie, 14€ if it’s 3D (which most available viewings are) and any popcorn and drink is also overpriced. Though I would say I could afford it technically, the bigger factor for me avoiding the cinema is the other people. I had too many shitty experiences in my life with people hitting my seat, being loud, being ill and coughing the whole movie, stinky people, etc

If I may give an additional suggestion? Maybe let the beard get trimmed too and get some tips on how to maintain that while you‘re at the stylist.

Wait, you are trans and in Russia? That seems like reason enough to flee, I wouldn‘t wait until they become aware enough of you to strip your citizenship. Maybe Finland would be ok: https://en.seta.fi/human-rights-support/asylum-for-the-lgbt-and-activists/

Good luck, I hope you will be safe.

I‘m starting to come to that conclusion too, or at least I noticed it seems like a curse for myself.

My former landlord did that, quite simply: he inherited the building and he paid for his travels with our rent. Just how our society is structured. I still liked him more than my current landlord, cause that is a company and it‘s straight impossible to even find out where this money goes. Maybe some billionaire who won‘t even appreciate it cause among 1000s properties it‘s almost a rounding error. At least with my former landlord I could hear some of his stories of what he experienced.

I wouldn‘t, but I also don‘t care if my family dislike me. So if you want to not pay for the uncle, you probably should move out first. Then you can be free from the likely negative social consequences coming your way. Though maybe if your dad is the one in charge, you can live there AND not pay. I‘d talk to your father on it first anyway and see how he thinks.

Cause moving out also means paying rent, so less money for savings too. So overall, is it cheaper to pay and keep the peace with family or cheaper to pay rent? Or can you get out of it somehow by teaming up with your dad? I‘d think on all that and whatever feels best to you, that is what you do.

If a cheaper worker came around, they would kick you out without a moment‘s hesitation as well, so fuck it.

Also Mineralölkonzerne sind auch interessiert daran HO niedrig zu halten, habe bis vor ein paar Monaten einem gearbeitet und wir durften nur 1 Tag pro Woche HO und es wurde auch offen kommuniziert, dass man HO mitunter verantwortlich macht, warum sich die Absatzmengen seit 2020 nur schleppend “erholen”.

Jedenfalls denke ich du hast sicher auch Recht, es kann halt auch mehrere Gründe geben.

My bag, because I‘m a woman and all my pockets are tiny.

I don‘t really like/want either, but slightly prefer cats cause they are quieter and I never stepped in cat poop.

Rhetoric in my eyes exists mainly to soothe, people want and need positive affirmations and are persuaded by mostly that which tells them what they want to hear, so if you tell them something that they don’t want to hear (like a criticism) it’s best so sandwich it into other positive things they do want to hear (like thank you or a positive voice) to soothe them into compliance.

Now that I read all this I honestly question whether I‘m a bit autistic too tbh, I like it online so much cause I can be blunt or more accurately truthful sometimes if I want without too much negative consequence, but IRL I basically always wear a mask hiding away my darkest thoughts cause I know they are unwanted and will be rejected by anyone but my therapist.

I think I experience a fairly similar reaction with dog barking (it has driven me so insane at times I experienced for the first time in my life what can only be described as “meltdowns”), which for me I have discovered that “action” is my remedy when drowning out doesn‘t work anymore. So I don‘t think you can do that with a kid you need to care for lol unless you get someone to help, but my favourite action is to get up and leave, I get up as soon as I notice it gets too much and go on a walk until I calmed down, usually quite a long one until I find a place without dog barking and can listen to quiet for a bit. Another good action for me is taking a shower (our bathroom is probably the one I can hear the dog the least).

Yeah you are not alone at all, there is an entire subreddit for this r/qanoncasualties and while my mother doesn‘t know it, a lot of this stuff comes from this Q thing. Like why else would a person like her in Austria care so much about Trump or Hillary Clinton or a guy like George Soros? Also a lot of it is thinly veiled borderline Nazi stuff (it‘s always the jews or other races or minority groups at fault), which is the next thing, she says she hates Nazis and yet they got her to vote far right and support all sorts of agendas. There is some mental trick happening there where “the left is the actual Nazis”.

Well she was always a bit weird with religion, aliens, wonder cures and other conspiracy stuff, but it really got turned towards these political aims in the last years. It feels malicious and it was distressing to me, though I‘m somewhat at peace with it now, the world is a crazy place and out of my control, I just try to do the best with what I can affect.

My mother‘s partner had some small success, on the one hand doing what you do already, unsubscribe from bad stuff and subscribe to some other stuff she might enjoy (nature channels, religious stuff which isn‘t so toxic, arts and crafts…) and also blocked some tabloid news on the router. On the other hand, he tried getting her outside more, they go on long hikes now and travel around a lot, plus he helped her find some hobbies (the arts and crafts one) and sits with her sometimes showing lots of interest and positive affirmations when she does that. Since religion is so important to her they also often go to (a not so toxic or cultish) church and church events and the choir and so on.

She‘s still into it to an extent, anti-vax will probably never change since she can’t trust doctors and hates needles and she still votes accordingly (which is far right in my country) too which is unfortunate, but she‘s calmed down a lot over it and isn‘t quite so radical and full of fear all the time.

Edit: oh and myself, I found out about a book “How to have impossible conversations” and the topics in there can be weird, but it helped me in staying somewhat calm when confronted with outlandish beliefs and not reinforce, though who knows how much that helps if anything (I think her partner contributed a LOT more than me).

Interesting, now that you said that, I notice it‘s similar for me. I haven‘t had any of my work related anxiety since this years long existential crisis started, probably because for that it really does help.

Unearthed some other more concerning thoughts though. Maybe that is also part of why I keep coming back to social media, it’s nice to get various insights like this. Thank you.