You might be laughing at the fog, but you aren’t far from the truth period take a moment to look into the John Deere hacker’s period you have these rough black farmers learning how to hack their combined machines, so they can work on them without having to have proprietary software, it is quite interesting and amazing period
Sorry four your loss, while her death may weigh heavy on you please be sure to take care of your self. While we can not control these things what we can do is put energy into the ones we love. As for your tumor what type of cancer is it if you don’t mind me asking my grandmother had cancer and it was hard on her but nowadays the treatments have improved much.
Can you elaborate on her reasons for wanting a divorce have you considered meeting with a couples therapist? Sometimes in relationships it’s hard to be honest and transparent without a third party looking at the whole picture.
Before going through such a thing just consider or ask her about it. The worse she can say is no. I hope things get better for you.