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Cake day: June 27th, 2023

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  • For me, a shutdown is when I stop cataloging the complex bits of what I’m perceiving and just go ‘listening to this is now unpleasant and I don’t want to subject myself to any more of this’. I might smile mechanically or emit encouraging ‘hmm’ noises, but I am on autopilot, you’re not going to be getting my higher brain functions applied to whatever you’re talking about, if I remember what you said it’s going to be as factual ‘this person said such and such’ memories that I have to actively recall instead of actual opinions on what you said that will already be integrated into our next conversation, and I will dither on the far end of human interaction range trying to figure out if I can flee ‘right now’ without being impolite.

    A meltdown… I get those, but I am experienced at calming myself down, so they’re basically ‘flashes’. Every so often, I will have a flash of… absolute, raging frustration at something. Like (as an example that actually happened to me recently) failing to pick up my water bottle twice after dropping it by accident. The first fumbling was an accident, they happen, they’re natural, I’m totally fine with that, I don’t even give it thought, I just go to pick it back up on reflex. The second fumble/first failure, I’m like, oops, better actually give this attention, I’ll be more careful the third time. Third fumble/second failure, my reaction is “REEEE I CAN’T PICK THIS THING UP! WHAT I JUST DID SHOULD HAVE PICKED IT UP! THIS SHOULD NOT BE!!!” (In internal monologue, not audible screaming. If it’s audible, they’re closer to the severe end of the spectrum.) And then I have to take in a deep breath through my nose and let it out slowly (and yes, I have surprised myself by actually making the ‘reeee’ sound effect while doing this) so that I can be PRECISE and DELIBERATE about picking the water bottle back up. This will then be followed by a temporary shutdown because I have just blown a fuse on my emotional centers.

    The common point is, I feel, that they’re both reactions to something anathema, sort of. A shutdown is passive avoidance, a meltdown is active rejection.



  • The problem is, there’s no immediately visible option to stop this crap; stopping said crap therefore takes time, which is an individual person’s single most valuable resource. People have to go searching through settings or go googling ‘how do I do this’ in order to disable this, and even that slight inconvenience means there’s going to be a lot of people that want to disable it, but end up not bothering, and that’s not a good thing. Rule of thumb, if it’s not absolutely trivial to do on a whim, it may as well be impossible.


  • Don’t tell me what to do.

    My only quibble with your post is your portrayal of Republicans’ general philosophy, in the last paragraph. Political conservatism, in my opinion which has recently been heavily influenced by the above link, is instead ‘conserving political power for yourself’. Because that’s what Republicans are doing. They want the power, and they don’t care what they do to get it. If they make a pandemic worse to get more power? That’s fine. Spur global warming past feedback thresholds in the process of getting more power? Who cares, they got more power. In the pursuit of the ‘right’ people telling the ‘wrong’ people what to do, and in the pursuit of keeping the ‘wrong’ people from telling the ‘right’ people what to do, anything goes. Hypocrisy, lies, crime, election fraud, subverting courts, coups, false patriotism, false piety, terrorism, even outright murder… anything goes.

    Know the enemy, spread the word to your friends and family (and maybe further).