Goodwill stores, at least where i live, are good for people in shaky situations. More accepting of people with special needs, circumstances. Mention cuz, not the type of work you’re looking for… for me, been out of work so long (8 years), me getting a p/t job at goodwill, committing, proving i can keep it, it’s the only way better paying jobs will take me seriously.

Would like the 75k per year tech job I had b4 becoming homeless. But have to be realistic, start small.

Baba Brinkman does rap music about science, evolution.

Dunno why, but your comment reminded of this:

https://youtu.be/2oRlBmwKzy4?si=NIg2ELZBkRCm_HzO

“Now that’s what I call music” I’m embarrassed to say, I use those volumes a lot to keep in touch with younger generations, new music. Also, among the more popular torrents generally, so download fast.

Out of sight, out of mind. If I need to clean frequently, I have to keep cleaning supplies out, easy to access. Enter a room, see cleaning supplies, oh, I should clean. Without the visual reminder, won’t remember.

Keep at least 2 to 3 notebooks on hand. Always writing stuff down. I’ll research, be thinking about something, but brain starts to lose focus. Write it down. Will completely forget after that. But when thought enters brain later, oh wait, I made notes…

Notepad app on phone. Anything important, will forget, so need to record.

Dbt, cbt has helped. Brain tends to be scattered, all over the place, so daily mindfulness, grounding exercises to connect to moment.

Only able to process data rapidly, large scale, all data at once. So, books with large pages, lots of data broken down, grouped for rapid assimilation.

Routines are essential. Phone always in left pocket, keys in right pocket, etc. If I put keys somewhere else, I’ll freak, panic. So routine, if I start to panic, look in usual spot, wait, they’re where they’re supposed to be.

If out in public, at a counter, take wallet out, lay on counter… stare at wallet entire time, not breaking eye contact, or else I’ll forget it’s there.

Wallet attached via chain. Small compact umbrella so I can keep in pocket, otherwise will lose it. Carbiner attached to things so it’s easier to hold, not lose.

Artist here. Gesso makes flimsy paper more durable, better able to withstand wetness, layering. I’ve used spray adhesive, various liquid adhesives that can turn paper more stiff, solid, crisp. Maybe try calling an art supplies store, they might have ideas

Don’t have internet where I live. But your suggestion sounds way helpful.

Bubble bobble

Castlevania

Metroid prime

Also as a kid remember playing some old school ghostbusters game that consisted of mashing a button over and over as quickly as possible.

Phone got stolen last year. New phone, installed instagram, tried to log into account, but locked out.

Instagram tech support told me I either had to: 1) take a photo of myself, they’d check if it matched any selfies in my account, or; 2) I had to associate my Facebook profile.

I’m security conscious enough to not post selfies online, nor use Facebook. Goodbye instagram.

Get bored with games SO quickly. Part of how to keep interest is figuring out on my own how the game works. And I can, on my own, figure out games, software, very quickly.

Too many phone games try to make you sit thru insufferable tedious tutorials. So you’re not only depriving me the chance to figure out on my own, you’re also insulting my intelligence. Any game does this, instant uninstall.

Due to bunch of stuff, by early 20s, was so disconnected from body. No idea how to connect with people.

Then was at a healthy, responsible community rave. Given a dose of ecstasy, and as it kicked in, people let me fall into a group hug mass, bodies warm, gentle, caring. Found self looking up at one person, a closeness, openness I’d never felt before.

Ecstasy showed me what was possible, opened something in me i didnt know was there. Only done it twice, but that was enough. If done responsibly, some drugs can be quite therapeutic.

If ghosts are real… then every living thing, cockroach, dogs, fish, fleas, birds, they get ghosts too, billions upon billions of ghosts flooding, saturating the universe.

Asperger syndrome and long term relationships. Woman author, last name Wiley, I think. She talks about her relationship with asperger partner.

The ethical slut. Odd, but it helped a lot, taught me how to communicate with people.

How to win friends and influence people. A bit cheap, scammy like. But has few good parts.

Go online, research the different ways autism peeps and neurotypicals communicate. Really fascinating. When autism people think of communicating, it’s the sharing of thoughts, ideas. Neurotypicals, it’s about elaborate rituals, almost a dance, they need it to know they’re included, have been accepted into the social group.

Fascinating from an anthropology perspective.

Heck yes. Lot of creative people with fascinating stories.

Yep. Most people in psych wards are struggling, need to process, deal. A typical dynamic I’d find: in the common room during free time, a few would be hanging out, socializing. Some sitting in corner would look over, and you could see they wanted to join, but were scared to. So one of us would say, hey if you want to sit with us, feel free. Some would accept, take chair next to us, and they’d sit quietly, and we’d leave them be, not pressure. Some would thaw, start engaging more. And some would leave, go sit in a corner.

Sometimes, I’d be that person, and be grateful for them reaching out, offering to include me.

This can translate to outer world. Just, normal world, can be hard to connect, people are less honest, less weird. I do better with weird. =)

Used to. Constantly wanting their approval, ways to impress them, make them like me. Constantly trying, making an effort to connect, join.

Then realized was focusing on my needs. Often, people so wrapped up in their own drama, realized I wasn’t the center of the universe. So I stopped trying.

Once I did that, weird thing happened. People started to come to me, wanting to chat, hang out.

Of course, this was in a psych ward, and I’m 43, no friends, living in a crappy studio apt, and only people I talk to are myself and random strangers on the internet. So what do I know.

I tend to hyperfixate. So I got into habit of getting up every 3 hours, going outside, walk around block. I will say to self, get up, right now, out of this chair, outside, now. Been doing this so long now, it’s become habit, part of daily routine. Has helped a lot.

The last 2 seasons is where it really got good for me. The complex stuff they had to do to interact with aliens so staggeringly different from humans… know discovery gets a lot of hate, but first time I watched it, it was what I always wished star trek would be. More believable, realistic, hazy grey areas, way better special effects, cinematography.

All star trek is good, tho.

I dont understand everything about quantum physics. I’m trying to learn. It reminds me about chaos theory and the properties of closed dynamic systems.

Rough analogy. Imagine a small fresh water aquarium. Exact size, always same location. Indoors, water temperature same. Same terrain on the bottom. Only 4 fish, simple behavior.

If you try to predict where a certain fish will be at an exact time, can do so with high accuracy.

But now… aquarium can change size. Freshwater. Saltwater. Sometimes indoors, other times outside. More effected by external forces. And fish behavior is way more complicated. At one temp, fish is a gas. Another temp, solid. Another fish in one setting behaves as particle , other settings, as a wave.

There’s also a chaotic element in the aquarium, randomness, chance.

Try to predict the exact physical location of a specific fish at a specific point in time… you can’t. What you can do is track patterns, trends over time. Expressed mathematically, you take into account various variables, environmental forces, etc. End result: equation says that a specific fish’s location at a specific point in time is a range of possible locations, possible states.

Some people incorrectly think us observing the fish causes it to be at that location. Nope.

This abstract superimposed multiple states thing is a math concept. But this can be confused with a separate tenet of quantum physics, the observer effect.

First double slit experiment was 1800s. Proved light was both particle and wave. In 1900s, scientists recreated this experiment with other elements. Electrons, etc. They realized other elements behaved the same. In one experiment, trying to figure out what was causing this behavior, they built tiny detectors, put it at one of the slits. Electron(?) stopped behaving as a wave, behaved as a particle. They removed the detector, wave behavior resumed.

The observer effect has nothing to do with human observation, human perception. All it means, when something is measured, it can change.

Here in the larger macro world, you’ve got a beam of wood. Get a tape measure to measure it. Hook metal tab at one end, run tape along wood to other end.

Rough analogy here… when tape measure hooks onto wood edge, a few molecules are shaved off. But it’s so infinitesimal. Doesn’t matter. But descend into quantum realm, where stuff is way tiny, and the tiny difference becomes huge.

So, with our limited scientific knowledge, we measure stuff, it changes it. Cuz of the clumsiness, imprecision of our instruments.

Semantically, observer effect can mean, anytime 2 things meet, they can effect each other. If a tree falls in the forest and no humans to witness it, it still makes a sound.

No idea if I’m understanding any of this correctly.

I’m struggling with that. My red, orange, blue oil pastels are running out. But have a bunch of brown, grey hues left. So forcing me to adapt. Also, was struggling to figure out how to add layering, depth, large areas of white space. But just one tiny white oil pastel. That forced me to experiment with using gesso as a medium. Initially, just to more cheaply add more white space. But realized gesso is amazing, can be sculpted, if you sculpt patterns, or carve lines into gesso, let it dry… when you lightly run oil pastel over the dried gesso…

Poverty, limited means can be useful. Necessity breeds adaptation.