I’m pretty sure people in my small town are trying to get me to off myself but I love spiting people. They gossiped to hell and back about me and even people who knew it was wrong treat me like a pariah. They spread my deadname and called me slurs. Keeping a job here is hard but I’m saving as much as I can to move. Every time I work somewhere people try to fuck me over and management never does anything. I’ve left multiple jobs from sexual harassment and gossip. Even my art online will get stalked by them after I move but I love it too much to give it up.
I’ve suffered my whole life from being a constant outsider. But metta meditation really helps me find allies in people instead of enemies.