I’m about to explode because of a person, one of the bosses at work, which is always ironic in a bad way, to tease, to feel superior. I’ve been obligated to suffer for a month, and now I feel like I explode. I do gym and meditate, but every week this person ruines everything. I’m afraid I ran out violently, I’m trapped because I don’t have an alternative, there’s only that job now and for next year, I wonder if my life is going to end like this, for a fight, fired and arrested, while the boss continues to enjoy and insult his employees…
maybe you need a plan, you're thinking about the bad ways it could end, but there's also good ways. It will probably be difficult but if you can stick it out until you find another job you can get the satisfaction of handing in your
And if they're making your life bad, chances are they're making someone else's life bad, too. Perhaps you could make a friend at the job who can at least make it a bit more bearable.
Sorry you're going through this, though, nothing's worse than someone making your life miserable where you spend a huge chunk of your time.
I feel almost obliged to attack also to defend all other employees, not immediately physically but I feel that I have something to say, something very heavy and direct, and this weight on the chest is heavy, you tell me to resist a year and I am already at the end of the line after a month. I'm just so afraid that words don't suffice with that clown, that everything will become unpleasant, and I pray so much that it improves, still stupidly I pray in a sympathy, I can't believe I have to go on like this for months and months, from below obliged for the salary, humiliated like nothing.
I just want to give you insight, take this with a grain of salt. I would treat the world like chess, except the real world isn't fair, and the rules are different for everyone. But that doesn't mean you can't win. Be smart, find everyone including your own strengths and weaknesses, and exploit it. You don't have to play by their rules or be ethical especially when other people don't, but that doesn't mean you can do anything you want, because every action has consequences.
What kind of meditation are you doing, and how much?
yoga, deep breathing exercises, every day for twenty minutes. Helps to go but not to overcome pain later.
I'm sorry you're stuck in this situation for a while. Yoga and meditation are definitely a good start but I feel like adding either journaling your TRUE feelings about what is going on or talking with a therapist or trusted friend about the things you really need to get off your chest–because leaving all these things you feel you need to say unsaid is obviously making your life harder.
Friends or therapist both hard to get, one requires money the other sympathy I never have. That's why situations degenerate, it would be easier with so much money and extroversion.
